The 12 photos have titles of (psychological) diseases or behaviours. It starts with „Schizophrenia“ and the subtitle „Dolly, finish your food“
We see a girl or young woman covering her face with a doll forming a cross with her arms. She is the doll. She is the one called „Dolly“ by her parents. The title indicates she is being torn apart by the expectations from the outside and her inner wishes.
We see the same young woman in this well composed photograph again, now showing vanity. She has this strong look in her eyes, facing the viewer, facing you and me while putting some lipstick on. The comb in her hair is a reminder of Snowwhite, it might be poisoned, but no matter what – she is convinced to be beautiful. Due to the mirror in her hand it seems she is somehow taking her face off and putting a new one on with the lipstick in her other hand.
In image three we see the photographer himself for the first time showing something, that is mistaken as a female problem: Anorexia Nervosa. We see him, this boy about to be man in a too big underpants, slims as if he shrunk. The sexual component of this (if I say „boy in underpants“) is not there as you just want to feed him and protect him.
And what does the next picture show? Him again. This time with make-up and the image title „queer“. Is this a photographic coming out? Is this his way to shout out that he is gay? Or is it about the subtitle that „there is nothing he (I) can do“?
We go back to the girl. She is looking at us with this crazy expression holding something (pills or poison plants?) in her hands. She cried. Her make-up is ruined. And she has a bit of a happy expresion, that death id a relief. A very strong photograph and that are all first shots, so he used only one roll of film (Lomography CN 100) to produce this series.
Is the reason to all those problems answered in the next photo?
Or is it „just“ another part of the series? Wouldn’t it match, as we see the girl with her doll again, but this time tied with a rope around her neck?
And suddenly we are taken into a rare and strange world with the next photo. „Hematolagnia“ is the sexual interest for blood, a blood fetish.
And the subtitle says it again: „Blood is the most beautiful thing in the world.“ We see the girl with this strong expression and a bleeding nose and I believe her that she likes blood.
One of the strongest photographs of the series is the following:
The photograph could be part of a fashion magazine with its light leaks and this slim body in the now well fitting underpants. But what is almost invisible due to the light damage on the film is the doll, because now he is using it to fulfill his sexual needs, to compensate the frustration.
And what is the subtitle?
„I embrace my flaws and make them my beautiful aspects.“